05 Jul Thank goodness this school week is almost over for me

For some unknown reason I don't have school on Friday, so-even though it's Wednesday-it's like a Thursday for me. I woke up this morning in a pretty bummy mood. =/ I have no idea why, I mean I had a great night last night. I got a lot of school work done and then I took Bear to Rita's before bed. We rolled the windows down, turned the volume up and were screaming songs out the windows. It was so much needed fun that just took my mind off of everything. When I got home I had a good conversation with Ryan. So really there is no reason why I should feel like this today. I hate waking up in a yucky mood. =[

I have never wanted summer to come so bad. There is nothing more I want than to have freedom. Besides the fact that it's my last summer before college! Anyway, so after school I took my aunt to work and the strangest thing happened. We were driving with the windows down and all of a sudden something flew in the window and hit me while I was driving. My aunt and I both looked at it, contemplating if what we saw was legit. I got hit with a damn stick! It was huge and it came into the window so suddenly! After a few seconds of silence, we both cracked up. As I was driving home, I got stuck behind a million slowwww drivers and this only further activated my road rage.

We just had the classic American dinner, hot dogs and macaroni and cheese. Not really my favorite but I ate and kept it down. Although, I'm ashamed to say that I did purge earlier today. =/ I don't mean to be a stick in the mud but I think maybe if I get this all out I'll feel better. Today is just one of those days that I feel hopeless and alone. Does anybody else get those days? I get them a lot and it's really discouraging. I've been doing everything I can to stay on some kind of track. I talk a lot in therapy, I listen to calming music, I blog, I talk to people, and I'm finally taking my medication regularly.